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24 September 2009 @ 12:06 pm
So I found out that I can go 2 days without pain pills, because I'm pregnant and no longer allowed to take them. 14 weeks and 4 days today; and I'm still wondering why this happened at this point in time.

Now it looks like the mexican drug cartel bombed my room because there's pill bottles everywhere.

Mom's having surgery October 10th, then another one 6 weeks later.\

I'm having the the c-section in March, [10th surgery] then either a hip fusion [11th surgery, first of four] or hip replacement [first of four.]

And my knee.

Way too much surgery.
well i'm sure i could, but i'm going to take some percs now.
Current Mood: failure
18 June 2009 @ 04:10 am
Have my pre-op today [18th], staying overnight w/ good friend and have the surgery tomorrow [19th].

Feel more than free to message/comment, call or text.




Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: 4th Dimensional Transition - MGMT
07 June 2009 @ 11:01 am
I'm so sad. I wanna cry all the time. I can't take it. I can't do it anymore. It hurts too much. Mom, I'm so sorry. I want you to forgive me.
They moved it. To June 19th. The pre-op is June 18th. Dr. Yen is assisting Dr. Millis which I'm nervous about because I put 100% trust in Dr. Millis; nobody else because when I did that the last time I got screwed over. But Dr. Yen is supposed to be excellent, so I digress. And there's a possibility that they may have to open the hip joint up anyway, and that this scope surgery may fail. Badly. Whatever.

I'm trying to acquire x-rays that were taken almost 5 years ago from fucking Hasbro. That's going great. I gotta wait a couple days then Mom and I will go up there and get them. Since we live in Newport anything over 30 mins. is a mothafuckin' road trip.

I found some vicodin yesterday I didn't even know I had. Christmas much?

Oh yeah, I got engaged.
Current Location: Newport, RI
Current Mood: medicated
Current Music: Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For The Two Of Us - My Chemical Romance
25 April 2009 @ 01:23 pm
Uhhhhhhhhhh surgery time again. Noooo. It's not so much the surgery itself as the recovery. It hurts like a mofo and I'm layed up in my bed for a month so I won't get to see Cody or anyone else. I'm very happy that Mom, Ray, and Pat approve of him. Muh momz is the only one that knows he's a bisexual atheist, although when she we were all talking I think she thought we were joking. Good thing she doesn't know that her daughter is a bi, what I like to call, fallen catholic.

So this is what happened with my hip.

11 year old girls has hip slip out of the socket, is shocked and rocked, proceeds to have a screw put in.

Has the screw taken out, because the bone slipped off the screw. Blood supply to the bone dies, head of the bone collapses, get osteoarthritis.

Says ftw, has the bone popped out, turned, shaved, and has a plate and five screws put in.

The bone grew back, so screws were taken out.

Had the bone grow back, had it popped [pop it lock it drop it] put and shaved and put 3 screws in.

Got 'em taken out.

At this point I had abandoned all Hope. That mothafucka grew back again, so they repeated the third surgery.

Had it taken out.

So's now they're doing a completely fucking different surgery with 2 of the best surgeons in the country operating on my hip. And I just don't even give a fuck anymore.
Current Location: Newport, RI
Current Mood: CodyLovar<3
Current Music: Something that sounds like an MRI machine.
Just proves that his lyrics can be interpreted WAY differently than he ever thought they could...
Current Location: Newport, RI
Current Music: DEAD! - My Chemical Romance
09 April 2009 @ 10:36 am
I've had it with this half blonde/black shit. It looks terrible. I'll dye it black tomorrow and crack back in black jokes all day.

Which reminds me;

Thank you for helping me.

I finally got my schooling straightened out, but sometimes I just feel like I want to stay with Cody and spend all day at his house and away from mine, but yet I still want to be with my mom and sister. Ray and Chris, not so much. PT is going okay, although everything helps. i may be helping my knee but I"m hurting my hip. Oh and my medical ran out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!one! But that was through human error, so those bitches at the office better get it straightened out. I'm still taking too much vicodin and indulging in various things too much, and it's really going to suck because I have to stop everything a month before my surgery, so I gotta stop April 11th. I don't know how I'm going to do it. I don't know. I saw Krissy today kinda. I just wanted to run up to her and hold her again, but I can't. I can't do anything til Saturday, so that's when I'll get to hang out with Cody. I like the fact that he'll hold my hand and call me beautiful, but yet something tells me not to believe him even if he's being honest. It hurts.
Current Location: Newport, RI
Current Music: Kids - MGMT
Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as your __% innocent.

01. Smoked.
02. Drank alcohol.
03. Cried when someone died.
04. Been drunk.
05. Had sex.
06. Been to a concert.
07. Gotten/given a hand job.
08. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
09. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.
11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose .
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.


21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done drugs.


31. Played strip poker/darts/pool.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Made beans.
40. Been in love.


41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.


51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Made spicy beans
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed Goth.
59. Dressed preppy .
60. Been to a motocross race.


61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.


71. Been caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.


81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore .


91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Left a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.

Current Location: Newport, RI
Current Music: It's My Life + Jon bon Jovi
First of all, WM day was really good. I got to hang out down town with David, Jeff and Cody and buy bubble tea and spit the bubbles and walk around and hang out at Cody's house.

So anyway...

Taker/HBK stole the fucking show. They really did. Best WM match since Steamboat/Savage.

Santina??? Wtf was THAT? Chicka looked like she robbed a Hot Topic. Chris said she kinda looked like Snape with that wig though. And she should NOT have been dancing to that Kid Rock song. ::shivers::

Ricky "The Dragon" Steamboat was AMAZING. The spot with Rourke was a weak, weak finish though. My Mom was like, "That's it? All that build up and that's IT???" And she was completely right.

I had hoped Edge would win; I like him.

I wanted Randy to win too. God I'm going for the heels.

I also thought the MiTB ladder match was really good too.

I've always like JBL, ever since his APA days, so I was sad to see him go. And I think I'm missing one that I can't think of right now.


So I had this dream I was chilling with a ton of WWE stars and we were all getting ready to go somewhere. [The scariest thing was that Ted DiBiase Jr. looked to have morphed together with one of my physical therapist Sam.] And I was sitting behind Batista and he put my hands on his chest and it was just really, really weird. I don't know where the hell that came from. I think it was a mix of Cody's fault, vicodin and being super tired and passing out a couple hours after I watched Raw, 'cuz that was when he returned. You'd think I'd have a dream about, oh, I don't know, Shawn Michaels.


THEY KILLED FUCKING KUTNER. I love him! He was always that weird kinda dorky person; but was a kickass character. I was watching it at Cody's house and almost started crying; especially at the end of the episode. I liked how Taulb and House coped, but I was surprised that Taulb didn't go to the funeral. This was Cody's first time watching House, so I was trying to explain everything to him while trying not to miss anything. Ryan, [one of my physical therapist] watches House so we're going to have a lot to talk about next time I see him. I also forced Cody to watch part of Raw, he was shocked that Randy had an 8 pack.
Current Location: Newport, RI
Current Music: Cubicles - My Chemical Romance